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Wednesday, April 4, 2012

A Week since chemo...

Coffee of the Day - Toffee Nut (first Starbucks in For-Ev-Er!!! major yummmmm!)


Thought I would pop in with my 'one week since chemo' post. What a thrill. ;)

Actually, Dave and I spent the day out, popping by to see Tyler for about 15 minutes, dropping by the church to say hello and take them a few little Easter gifts (have you thanked your church secretary lately? I bet you would make her day! We love Patty!). I rested in the car as we drove from place to place, and couldn't really stay anywhere for very long, but gosh it felt good to get out in the fresh air and sunshine.

I had my first Starbuck's in what seems like forever. oh what pure bliss! I can't begin to tell you how much I miss those tasty treats! :) once we made it back home, I slept for several hours. I'm still feeling whooped, but that is okay.

Physically, well, chemo has started taking its toll already. I feel dizzy and queasy most of the time. my body, which shakes with tremors anyhow, really shakes now. I'm always cold. and that is so unusual for me. so I have to stay bundled up in my hoodies and a special shawl that a dear friend made for me. I've started losing my eyelashes. yeah, it's weird. most people have their hair fall out first. for me, my eyelashes are falling out like crazy. they keep getting caught in my eyes and drive me nuts. some of my hair is coming out as well. I lost a tooth the other day. that caught me off guard. just a big gaping hole in the back of my mouth.....no warning whatsoever. just gone. and it's been one week....

I can't start asking what the next week will bring or the one after that or the one after that because I will go absolutely bonkers if I do. I have to just hang on to each moment and savor the beauty each one contains. Because there ARE still wonders to behold. there ARE still joys to experience and I fully intend to grab each one I encounter and wrap them in my heart, holding on for all they are worth. and then I will let the joy and wonder go to float along to the next person on the wings of the birds that sit outside my window. they will ride on the song of the owl that still serenades me every day. and perhaps the joy and wonder will come to you, dear friend! and you will feel the love that has touched my life and hold it in your heart for just a moment and know how blessed we have been. :)

16 comments:

terriavidreader (IN-USA) said...

Know we are thinking of you as you go through this! Saying little prayers every day!

Rhonda Miller said...

Jen, I'm glad to hear you were able to get out and enjoy a little sunshine. I've been thinking of you and keeping you and your family in my prayers.

Hugs,
Rhonda

Cec said...

Oh My Goodness, you are the most wonderfully positive person. That is a great thing too because it will carry you through this. Being cold is not unusual so I am glad you have hoodies and a special shawl to help keep you warm (besides the love of your family and friends). Hang in and all of us are keeping you in our prayers.
Big Soft Hugs!
Cec

Kimberly said...

hey Jennifer, Sending you my love and you will get through it :)

Jessica said...

Such a beautiful post Jennifer. Very inspiring words. It is great to hear you are embracing each moment with the positive thoughts you just shared. Hugz, and keeping you in my prayers!
:O)
Jessica S

Jennifer said...

Jennifer this is beautiful! Treasure each moment and all those you love, for truly all we have is this moment. Think of a blessing for each eyelash and hair you find.

Renee said...

the birds WERE singing outside my window today when I got home from Arizona!....I feel your love....do you feel mine?
Huge hugs my friend
Renee

Gina said...

Please know you are in my thoughts throughout the day, every day. I am so happy you got to go to Starbucks though!!

JLJ Designs said...

Jennifer - Thinking about you. I'm glad you got to get out. It's good reminder to thank our church secretaries.

Jen

Jenn Borjeson said...

Oh my dear, sweet friend. There is not one day that goes by that you are not in my thoughts. Sending you lots and lots of hugs. xoxoxoxoxo

CreatewithTlc said...

Wow....cheers to your beautiful spirit. You are truly an inspiration.
Paulette

Stef H (Glitterbabe) said...

oh jennifer! i didn't know! i am so, so sorry to hear of your illness. please, please know that i am praying for you as is my church! you're in my permanent prayer list!!!!

i wish you a truly blessed easter with many wonderful miracles coming your way.

big hugs, my dear friend!

PeggyR said...

You have a great attitude. My husband is in rehab once again for his stroke, but he is in a room next too a senior that we know who has cancer. So I get to visit her while I am there as well. Have a wonderful Easter!

Shelly Schmidt said...

Just stopped in to say have a wonderful Easter- I will pray you have energy and an appetite to enjoy it! I did not know you were having health battles, but surely will keep you in prayers. Glad you got a touch of sunshine and socialization today. {HUGS}

MilkCoffee said...

I wish you will get healthy again soon Jen, so you can do all the things you love again. And I admire how strong you are! I'm sure God have beautiful plan for you :)

Happy Easter, and glad to know you can drink starbuck again ^^ Coffee is the best!Gbu and your fams!

Mary J said...

Hugs to you honey

M x